I wrote this song when thinking about my children. The past that's gone, the present that I now have and the joyful hope of the future I have.
The first part of the song is about looking at pictures of past seasons with my kids and how I mourn the loss of that season in their lives. Seeing how I spent so much of my time and focus on everything other than being with my them. The feeling that comes of both gratitude for the time spent with them and regret that I didn't press into them more.
The middle section is about making the inner resolution to embrace the present moment and the opportunity that I still have to embrace them, be there for them and intentionally develop the relationship that I wished I had developed in seasons past.
The final resolution to the song is the hope of the time I still have a chance to choose to embrace with them. I can reframe the next season to include them more, I can cultivate an amazing life giving relationship with each one of them and be the best father I can be. It resolves with hope but also a reverent fear of failure if I can be honest.
Gratefulness and mourning for the past.
Realizing the opportunity of the future.
Having hope for the future.
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